Christmas Changes

Well, practically all of my friends are on vacation, and enjoying life in Mexico or in California...or visiting their Mom or Dad...or sick..or busy shopping. Here I'am with my tub of red velvet ice cream, and a big spoon. Chilliwack if pretty boring if you ask me. I know that Christmas is to be celebrated about Christ's birthday, and family...but this year it's a bit downgraded. The Charlebois' family is not having a big bash this year, like we have for the past 14 years...we are having a dinner for 3 instead. I'am really grateful for the things I have, and I don't actually mind what I'm getting for Christmas. I just really wish that Christmas break would be over already. I miss my friends, and school. I miss being in Broadcast Media, and being involved in activities. I've biked everywhere, had one sleepover, watched more Christmas specials, and listened to more 'Seether' and 'Hedley' music more then usual. I guess you could say I have the blues...and I don't know why. I've tried to keep my mind off of....him. I've gone Christmas shopping, wrapped presents, and baked cookies. Ugh, I wish that he didn't have to be away, but at least I'll be able to see him after Boxing Day!

Well, this is Danae, saying, goodnight!

Yes, I'am sure!

So tonight we had a Christmas movie night with my youth group and I had a BLAST! He was there, the guy I liked, and we had a fun time. We all drank pop,and ate chips, and chilled for a few hours, not even bothering to watch the movie. So we stayed up in the youth room, and played Ping Pong, Foosball, and tag. We wrestled, we sang, and had a jolly good time! Early Merry Christmas to ya'll out there in Chilliwack and other places!

Soo happy :)

Going to sleep now,
talk you guys later :-)

Bye <3

Starting New

Yesterday I broke up with my boyfriend. Not just because I kinda have a crush on another guy, but because we were on different pages, and he wanted different things then me. I had thought he was the one, but he was a fraud. I'm done for now. And I know what you guys are all thinking. "Oh, no, Danae is gonna have a boyfriend in a week or so". No, I've decided that I need to wait, and let God guide me.

Just updating for you guys :P There is a dance tomorrow, but I'm skippin' it, and gonna hang with my friends. because we are too cool to dance :-D

Have a great night guys!

Performing Center Stage...

Today,  my 3 other youth friends and I, performed a skit called, "It's A Wonderful Fruitcake"


It was set in the 50's era, so I had a poodle skirt, and a high ponytail. It was a play about a family that had this rich Aunt Edna, and she owns a bunch of fruitcake factories. the first year she gave them a fruitcake with no card. They really dislike fruitcake, so them assume that every year she just sends them one. One year, they open it, because the UPS guy loves that certain dessert. The Dad opens it, and sees that there was a letter and a check. He reads it to the family, and realizes that it is a check for 10,000 dollars! They had been throwing out money for the past 15 years!

The moral of the story, is that small but important things, come in different packages. And that Christmas is about giving not receiving, being thankful, and Jesus' birthday.

I was the bratty 15 year old teenager, Lilly. I had a ton of lines, and I was sure nervous! But it was fun!

So that's what I have done for the beginning of the day. I've got 4 more plays/ live show stuff to do this week. So I gotta go rest up!

Adiós!

Right Beside Me....

   Well I never knew how blind I could be. I'm going out with a guy I don't even get along with. When the guy I'm supposed to be with is right beside me. I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH MY BEST FRIEND! Maybe I've been wrong about other guys in the past, but believe me...this is the real thing. He goes to youth group with me, he's an amazing singer, he never puts me down, he HATES video games, he's a Christian, he's funny, smart, and cute. We have way more in common then the guy I'm going out with right now. I don't change my mind a lot with these sort of things. Feelings have overwhelmed me ever since my boyfriend and I's breakup. Of course we got back together, but I don't know if it was the right thing to do. I'm not jumping to conclusions, and breaking up right away....I'm gonna wait another 3 months. But if this overpowering feelings of jealousy, pathetic, and crushing doesn't stop.....I don't know what I'll do. Oh those blue eyes...

He's always there for me. Always asking me if I'm all right. There for a shoulder to cry on. Always there to wipe me tears. To squeeze me hand. Tell me I'm beautiful. That I'm talented. Always tagging along to do random stuff. Playing cards. Laughing at my jokes. Making me laugh when I'm sad. Making songs for me on his guitar. Telling me that I deserve the best. That I can do anything I work hard for. To stick up for me. To massage my feet. To be my pillow. Read to me. Share ice cream with me. Shop with me. Brush a piece of hair off my face. To hold me when I need a hug. Man, those hugs.....

This guy is so close, and he thinks we are like brother and sister. I'm not ready to tell him. I don't want to lose that bond. The closeness. The comfort. And if he doesn't feel the same, then that will all be gone.

But don't some elderly people tell the story of how they fell in love, and married their best friend? I don't know....maybe it's a crush. Maybe I'm misunderstanding signals. Am I? I'll wait, but I don't want anyone to have him...

 I've NEVER felt this way before. Not as strong. I'd kill anyone that would hurt him..(not literally). It's been going on for two months now. But there was this one time, about a week ago, we were hugging randomly, and it lasted for like 2 mins. My breath grew faster, as my head was against his chest. I looked up, and he was gazing right into my eyes. We inched closer and closer...and oven timer went off, because we made cookies. We broke apart abruptly. We were soo close! But he shrugged and laughed it off as a joke,a nd punched me in the arm. Thank goodness he couldn't read my mind, because I really wanted him to kiss me....But anyhow, that's what is running through my brain. I can't sleep, can't eat. Is this love? Or over-controlling, freakish, random, crushing, head-over-heels, once in a lifetime fling? HELP ME! D: Comment on what you think it is, or what I should do!



-Danae .C.

Give Me Strength God....

Today I found out that my closest friends told everyone one of my darkest deepest secrets. It was so humiliating! Everyone started laughing at me when I walked into the classroom. Why can't people keep people keep their mouths shut? I trusted him, and he used his tongue as a weapon towards me. It took all the strength I had to not cry, and beat him to mush. I put my head down on my desk, and gulped back the pain. At least that was the last period of the day. God, give me strength to deal with this in the most mature way. Let all pain release from my body. And help my so-called friend to see what he did. He doesn't have to apologize, but I would like him to. Help me to keep my cool, and that my naive mind can comprehend why would someone do that to me. No one's perfect, I know that. But this part of learning is hard. And it isn't going to be the first time. Guys, please pray for me...

Computer Mouses, Concussions, and Shopping Malls.

Today I went shopping with my parents. At my youth group, every year we always have a Christmas Banquet. I wanted to buy a brand new dress to wear there, because the event is formal. So I'm going around, towing my Mom around everywhere. Nothing fitted me perfectly. I really needed to find one, because the event is December 8th. So at once, I went to a place called "Suzy Shier". I found a deep purple sophisticated dress. PERFECT! :) Then Mom and I went and found my Dad, and we went to the food court, and got Chinese food. Then we decided to go home. I was walking around the corner, and I saw..... MIKEILA BELLAVANCE! <3 :D

Oh my, that was great. She gave me such a strong hug, I dropped my Pepsi! Ahaha, but it was okay! I met her youth leader Megan, and her other friend. It was really nice! And sorry to Mikeila if I seemed a bit off! the reason why was...

 A couple days ago, I was rushing to my first class. I bent down to grab some of my dropped books, and since I have a top locker, the door's sharp edge was moved directly to my head. But nooo I didn't notice. I whipped my head up, the sharp edge when into my skull. OUCH!!!!! I blacked out a bit. Once I cleared my sight, and held my throbbing head, I headed to class. I woozily sat down right as the bell rang. My friend Kelsey looked at me weirdly, and whispered, " Dude your bleeding all over the place!". I put my hand near my wound, and found it covered in blood. GROSS! She told me to go up to the Sub, and ask to go down to the medical room. As I went, blood trailed. I got to the office, and they called Mr. Munshaw down ( The Tec/Medical teacher). I layed down, and he cleaned it out. I found out I got a concussion. :-/  I went home early, like at 11:00, and I relaxed the whole day. I'm all right now, I just feel a little weird. It's all right though, it's not my first one :-P

But anyway Mikeila it was nice to talk to you again. I'll seeya in your play at the end of the month! :-)

But about computer mouses, my cat Keiko, pronounced (Keee-co), was following my mouse when I was on my laptop today. Sooo cuute! He tried to bite the screen, and batted it with his paw! :-D

But anyhow, that all that has happened the past couple of days. :)

G'night all!